blue without yellow

i’m dancing alone in my living room

after a night with my best friend, my platonic soul mate

free, chaotic calm

it’s 1am

i’m between the walls of this 650 square foot apartment surrounded by picture frames i’ve had for years— somehow finding different placements for each photo every year

throwing my limbs to mission impossible III by Headache on loop

all versions of me blending into one

feeling the child, the adolescent, the young adult inside of me

happy, content, okay after everything painful and good and stressful and tiring and loving experience this life has offered me

i’m lucky to live these breaths

im here now

i’ll always be here