end of the tunnel

i am finding some lightness again

while it’s been small glimmers that i wish lasted a lot longer

im back in my body and in my own head again

i can listen to music happily again

i can eat again

i can move my body

(thanking that spiritual fuck ass who invented yoga)

i’m more present with my friends

i’m planning things for my future

people have been telling me that they are happy to see me smiling again

and that makes me think im a lot more resilient than i give myself credit for