signal fire

May 9

you touched a soft and sacred part of my soul

not with your words, not with your touch,

but in the spaces between,

an unseen knowing,

an invisible understanding,

an intertwining I might’ve felt alone,

but it set me on fire.

i truly believed you’d never hurt me.

i believed you were with me in this life.

i would’ve walked through fire and flood with you

for a time,

you softened my sharpest edges.

you stayed when i shut down.

you helped me unravel my thoughts when i couldn’t get a word out

patiently letting me find my voice.

until you couldn’t anymore

until you disappeared-

without warning, without grace,

not an ounce of decency

leaving only the echo of your absence-

complete silence

please don’t blame me for wearing these wounds a little longer.

this pain has no home,

but inside my bones

and it’s maddening

parking lot