second reminder! gratitude!

even in the wake of losing someone, I have been really happy with life. I genuinely am so grateful for all the people that care about me and embrace me, no matter what wavelength I am on. recently I’ve been hanging out with Danielle and Felipe a lot. We have been absolute monster goblins together going to concerts and events, and we have also shared wholesome days under the sun- all spilling our guts out on the grass. I am spending a lot of time at yoga, preparing for teacher training coming up. I am on day … 23? of no social media. I’m writing a lot, evidenced by this blog. Austin has been teaching me how to use my camera. Last weekend we went to Krause Springs and I got some beautiful photos there, swam, ate snacks, and played a card game. Danielle and I are getting closer and closer- she is my sister at this point. Last Friday we went to Fontaines DC together and we danced so hard, our limbs were flying all over the place as we cackled our asses off. I’ve been to therapy every week, sometimes twice a week, and have made an overwhelming amount of discoveries about myself— mostly about my subconscious self and patters I have been recreating, which I will write about in the next post. My therapist is a psychologist and incredibly intelligent, kind, and warm hearted. I am surprised with myself how disgustingly honest I have been in therapy. It is hard to tell the raw truth of my feelings and sometimes actions- in all its ugliness. I also am doing so well at work I am about to submit my first loan committee deal that is over 1 million dollarz. ;) Anyways— this is an entry for myself to remind myself that life is good and I get to wake up every single day and start over. Note to self: you are the light.