jam

today was a gentle reminder to stay in my body

to not flee at the sight of discomfort

to not let my lyme flareup cause me to ruminate about my seemingly never-ending health struggles, and inadequacy of living a normal life for prolonged periods of time. to invite the pain in because it is my body telling me to slow down, to recognize its emotional and physical exhaustion

to not allow an unpleasant sight make my mind escape my trembling hands and make me believe i’m regressing

to remind myself i was whole before, now, and always will be